Tired of people abandoning me when I need them the most. Tired of people making me apologize when I’m not in the wrong. Tired of people expecting me to forgive my abusers when they clearly need to be held accountable. Tired of people bringing in my past wrongdoings when I vent about the times when I’m the victim. Tired of repeating the same mistakes I swore not to repeat. Tired of people breaking boundaries and then play victim because I’m the one with a history of controversy after controversy. Tired of being reminded of my unhappy experience of being an online presence as a child. Tired of thinking about how my previous abusers and groomers got away with everything. Tired of putting a fake smile on my face when I was cut from the cycle of abuse. Tired of people online not caring about me (even when I shive my controversies down their throats). Tired of being neglected by the people who are supposed to look after me. Tired of people celebrating my farewell when they ignore the fact it’s going to negatively impact my mental health and for not releasing my irl friends would be mostly absent in my life. Tired of people not listening to me. Tired of people not taking my word for granted. Tired of people glossing over everything I say to them. Tired of people pretending to care about me (when I’m not in the wrong). Tired of THAT ONE PERSON treating me like a lab rat and then ditching me out in the busy street. Tired of being used. Tired of using others. Tired of people forgetting I was hurt. Tired of being mean. Tired from being kind. Tired of people being ignorant towards everything I say to them. Tired of being betrayed. Tired of being traumatized. Just tired.