For the last year I haven’t changed one bit. I act a lot more normal in presentation but the urges to wish harm upon those who live with me are getting stronger. I’ve made a similar post about this on my YouTube channel, but it just got. Worse. My sibling was the first to point it out and since then I have felt self aware about my actions day and night, it’s like something clicked inside of me. I’m gonna discuss this between me and my therapist next week, I feel like something bad is about to happen.

I just don’t know why I still feel aggressive despite all of the effort for me to change as a person.